biabia (:

Lately, I’ve been ulti tired with ACE, with volunteering. Especially when reforms have been ongoing and I totally dislike the unpleasant effects of them. Things got me so frustrated that I often questioned myself, is this is best place to stay? Won’t I be better off with another group, or if I go pioneer another group?

I think after the TF training, I am super duper sure that I didn’t make the wrong choice to continue volunteering here. Ther concept is always the same, we do things, make mistakes, we share, brainstorm, care for one another, grow and finally inspire new volunteers to keep going. It stuck me that the feeling at ACE is the same as all the other volunteering experiences I enjoyed when I was having this really long chat with Alicia. It was long, but totally nice and heartwarming. It is the same thing I go through with YV peeps, we chat over our lives, what we believe in, what changes we hope to see, what do we treasure in life, what else we want to do in our lives… It’s really amazing, the way we forge and maintain our friendships. Even an inital intern who was supposed to help with admin stuff, get infected to feel the same as we do and enjoy the whole process with us, I think we are seriously amazing people who do amazing things.

Despite feeling like shit about straining my injuried ankles from all the shit load walking at ECP, I was really very very happy to go through another SVC activity. Daniel reminded me of my weakness when I was sharing about how distracted I am about like problems and loopholes we are facing. Honestly, I was having alot of difficulties concentrating on observing every little thing I could at training, making mental notes about them, and thinking of solutions calmly. I never know how to make small steps and not worry over little things. Cos I always get emotionally involved in every little problem I notice, I get too overwhelmed with the whole load of issues in front of me, and can never be able to solve them to my fullest ability. Haha, even though I was reminded of my old long weakness, it stills feels good to have an old friend sharing things close to our hearts. (:

These 2 days simply reassured me that I am right to stay on. I just knew that there was more to this. Everytime I returned with doubts, I always go home with a bag load of things to take away. Even if things turn out to be a complete failure, they can never take away my friends I know from volunteering, who can last me one lifetime.

Hi Sylvia, I’M BACK.

Did you go hiding or someone stole you away? Or I killed out while I was sleepwalking? Shit man, I feel so lifeless without you. How could I end up emotionless? Ever since the last one one year back, how could tis every happen? I’m supposed to be a emotion-filled creature. Hi, come home please?

thanks for being a full of yourself and being completely myopic about what you have been doing. and you call yourself someone who has learned alot from past experiences. bullshit. look at what you have done when you dont maintain the right attitude. that’s a total GG to you. shut up and start looking at the ground.

Four years ago, this was my effort to piece ourselves together, to help us brave that difficult time. I remember it was 21st April 2005. It was not easy, but we got through eventually, and our juniors promised us that honours 2 years later. They were so awesome, loved them. They got this?erroneous display picture on msn after their sweet victory, haha.

Today, it happened again. Man, wished I was there with them for the entire preparation. Feels good to re-live that memory again. Just like what a few of us did for the concert last year. No matter what it is, I’m sure seniors will be proud of all of you. Definitelty, no doubts to that. I know it is not easy to get over, but stay strong, RV kids are strong-willed. It is the memories with rvco that will follow us through our lives. There is no other place that we can find the same kind of passion and happiness for our friends, for music, elsewhere. Jiayou people. RVCO, forever. <3

I love reading. It is super enriching and it creates a massacre in my brain. Fantastic.

yes! thank you kenneth, for reviving my blog for me. ha the previous theme KILLED it completely. shruks. i shall change my theme after exams maybe.

exams are horribly scary once again ): sian, i’ve been a really horrigible student this sem. have gotta do some serious review on my performance and how i can go ahead from here.

FIVE DAYS. ): scarey scarey.

(x ace comm 08 was freaking sweet last night. Was busy with accounting report. Had to skip ACE meeting. We were freaking smart. Completed at 9.30pm. Closed the document, to realise that we did not know where we saved the file. (Y) Imba brains. That left us like this:

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Not that exaggerated though, lol. Managed to finish at 1am, without feeling too stressed and celebrated with McNuggets and McFlurrys.

While we were re-editing the report, I started to receive messages from numbers not in my contact list. They told me to “jiayou with my work”, that I was “missed tonight”, I had to “kick some butts”! Lol. I was really surprised and touched. Gave me more motivation to put in more effort in my work. Encouragement makes magic (: Never realised that it truly does the trick.

Just wanted to say thank you to all and it makes me look forward to working with our comm even more! (x Will return the jiayous when you need them, ha.

I’m damn imba. I’ve just wasted abot 2 hours of my time when I should be preparing for my comm funds presenation. (Y) Miss harry.

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Bitter sweet ending. A relationship that lasted for less than a week. It started off with me being completely confused about how we should go about with it. I was so worried, so afriad, cos everyone else was ahead of me. Others reaching the end while I was still struggling to understand you. When we finally had time to ponder upon our issues quietly, it was another agonising experience as we just could not find the right way to handle them, and I was in denial to face them. The entire of yesterday was not that effective cos I kept daydreaming.

But it is all over. This short, energy consuming and brain draining experience. I’ve it all in 8 pages, 2018 words. A sweet victory for all that I’ve put into this. We would still be friends, right Siong?

I’m a clever girl. I’m gonna spend my night with Mraz, Jason Mraz. (x