biabia (:

i’m giving PSC a miss. hell, that i actually spent a week on that. it made sense, i mean i was just applying for the sake of applying. not that like i’m dying to be a civil servant. they wont want me for being so unenthusiastic about public service. i should just go focus on what i need and plan ahead ahead, hmm. thanks to miss lim, i am thinking better and more clearly. i mean my mind was in a whirl. i dunno what exactly to do and what kind of short cuts to look out for. at least now i am giving quality thought, rather than feeling everything in darkness.

it was great going back to hwachong, stoning at my place on the class bench, eating the one-dollar-hotdog-bread, visiting miss lim… it reminds me of how much i actually loved a school, my comfort zone, my aspirations… ahh, in short, i miss school. life without obligation sucks. i never thought i would desire for an unquestionable responsibility. urgh

just completed an essay for jingfeng, goodness, he is so gonna owe me a treat. i never dreamt of writing an essay for my friend. am rather surprised that i agreed to help. i would like gone like “huh, but it is your essay, how could i do it for you? blah blah..” but he is a poor chap. think those cj kids all are. with common test next week, spa this week, and a nonsense essay to complete for an external organisation. oh wellllll.

0133h looks rather late. goodness, i’ve got work at 12 tmr, ahh.