biabia (:

sylvia has been stuck in the confused state for too long. thank you, vick, for reminding me that i have no time to waste. i should so stop wasting my time and my friends’ time in whining over silly things. stop being weak, sylvia. just do what you need to do. your concept was always to be the one giving and not the one throwing tantrums. and thank you, friends, for at least i know now that there are friends who still love me for who i am and will help me in fighting my weaknesses and building my strengths. and thank you, for accompanying me the whole day too. it helped a lot, seriously. and now, i know that i can do more than just crying alone when i face such problems again. sylvia won’t continue to be a hermit crab. i don’t need to care if a particular person values me cos more importantly is how i value that person. i miss myself being noisy and easy going, just like how i always behave with 71, with huangcheng, with rvians, with my family. all these nonsense has to stop. cut the crap and move on. stop pretending to be confused and psyching yourself into that state cos things will never turn better that way.

and about the can of worms, sigh. i should never doubt my mother about such advices. they really turn out to be the best way to handle things in the world outside of home and school. i only hope that people can stop freaking me out with all those rubbish tactics. i want peace.

results will be out on friday. honestly, i claim to be nervous and worried but feelings aren’t that intense yet. hope i don’t cry on friday. whether they turn out good or bad. i cried real badly despite doing well for Os.

oh my god! i am meeting mayday tmr <3 i can’t wait.