biabia (:

This should be all exciting! Daniel Yeo and myself are partner buddies again. I’m working in a committee again, after sometime. It is gonna be a brand new programme to build our talent pool. My role is something I haven’t tried. We also have a couple of young potentials whom I’m glad to be able to share my experience with. Maybe I will get to feel like how I did at YV08, to feel the pure innocent burning passion from these younger ones again.

Talking to Gary Seet these days has been inspiring. Just like how Vick encouraged me in the past. (: Assuring that I really have something to share, to contribute. This is how YV keeps me going.

Before all that, I should be doing my assignments and projects ): plus INSTEP. man, I’m starting to dread school. I want to extend my break. Hokae, should take it that I’m lumping my breaks up to a whole three month pwnage HOLIDAEE.

When can I ever learn to balance it? It’s either I care much for home or am irresponsible. /:

Just this one last thing and this is it. I want, or rather i need, more love, passion and appreciation. Not just from others but also from myself. I know just where to find it. (: It is time to learn not to give the benefit of doubt on first sight.

I must revive the right concept. Pwnage.

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was moved to tears while reading my previous blog posts.

the last time i cried was when i called vick at the beginning of the semester. i was struggling with all my emotions and perspective because i was too caught up with feeling unhappiness with the place, people and issues. for the past several years, i had never experienced so much disgust and had never been unable to control such intensed negative emotions about things out of my control. he reminded me that i have something extremely valuable with me. not just something, but the entire concept of living, the way to treat my friends, the postive view on things. yv gave me so many opportunities to practise this, and i had the privilege of improving myself over the past four years and counting. i should apply what i have learnt in yv, put it to good use, instead of keeping all the bad emotions to myself and not attempting to do anything to improve the situation, which isnt what yv has taught me either (:

today, i was surfing the net and randomly decided to visit my blog. i started reading from the first entry on this limsimiteh site. the whole feeling that yv came to me. the process of learning, enlightenment and growing came fluttering to me. last year had been one filled with observations of reality and humanity. jaded or touching, everything was close to my heart. it made me feel so at peace. everything was so freaking touching that i was moved to tears about what i have experienced. sylvia has proven to be a strong and sensible girl. she will pull through whatever that comes ahead of her. (:

Start Of Something New – Zac Efron and Vanessa Anne Hudgens

I think this is what I’m looking for, a new avenue to explore about myself and performance. I have been feeling stagnant about my personal development. I’m super used to the YV system already, not that it doesn’t stretch me, but it doesn’t stretch enough. Wee, this whole sing and dance thing is rather interesting. I miss performing. In fact, I miss my qin.