biabia (:

was moved to tears while reading my previous blog posts.

the last time i cried was when i called vick at the beginning of the semester. i was struggling with all my emotions and perspective because i was too caught up with feeling unhappiness with the place, people and issues. for the past several years, i had never experienced so much disgust and had never been unable to control such intensed negative emotions about things out of my control. he reminded me that i have something extremely valuable with me. not just something, but the entire concept of living, the way to treat my friends, the postive view on things. yv gave me so many opportunities to practise this, and i had the privilege of improving myself over the past four years and counting. i should apply what i have learnt in yv, put it to good use, instead of keeping all the bad emotions to myself and not attempting to do anything to improve the situation, which isnt what yv has taught me either (:

today, i was surfing the net and randomly decided to visit my blog. i started reading from the first entry on this limsimiteh site. the whole feeling that yv came to me. the process of learning, enlightenment and growing came fluttering to me. last year had been one filled with observations of reality and humanity. jaded or touching, everything was close to my heart. it made me feel so at peace. everything was so freaking touching that i was moved to tears about what i have experienced. sylvia has proven to be a strong and sensible girl. she will pull through whatever that comes ahead of her. (: