biabia (:

26th Dec, Sat

On this very last day. All I want to do, is to leave behind all the sad moments. All the time I feel horrible about missing home. Missing my family. Missing my friends. Missing the good old days. Missing the life I wish for.

I guess most of the exchange students are bittersweet about leaving Copenhagen. I guess I’m the only kid who is purely happy about going home. These 4 months has been an ultimate nightmare. There were so many things to juggle. Learning about living in a foreign place is seriously no easy feat. It’s so tiring to always be keeping a look out for myself. Making sure that I’m safe Making sure I have food. Making sure I don’t freeze to death. Making sure that I am studying. Making sure that I do my laundry. Making sure I still know what’s happening at home. Making sure that I am still learning every single day about little things in life. Making sure I’m happy, we are all happy.

It may sound like it’s all whining to you. But coming from a kid who never had to wash her laundry, to cook her meals, to clean the house, whose only duty is to study and be happy, I believe it’s fair.

I hope the flights gonna be like a wink of eye. I would wake up and find myself in Bangkok, that it would be a super enjoyable last 3 hours on the plane transit home. To where I know I call home. It’s all corny and cheesy. But that’s the simplest and most direct way of putting it across. It’s the place of my roots. The place my family and friends are. The social circle that I can grow and be happy most.

These 4 months have been truly an eye opener. To find out how different Europe is like. How this so called beautiful 4 seasons is totally not awesome at all. How surprising it is to find out that so many countries aren’t as fortunate as Singapore. How amazing the history and mankind can be. And how ugly we can turn into. How people interact when we all come together, not due to a common purpose like running a project or learning something. How blessed we are to be shielded from natural disasters and prospering economically. How Singlish is truly a unique identity of Singaporeans. How I have to speak to make native and non-native English speakers understand and be understood. How it is really not easy to manage a household. How it is a real headache not to know what to cook for the next meal. How heavy groceries can be. How I miss hanging out. How inconvenient it can be out on the streets not to be able to find free toilets. How amazing it is to go on a train without gantries. How most people in the world aren’t as uptight as Singaporeans, they are able to take a step at a step. How important it is to stay true to yourself. How so many so many temptations are out there in the world.

So many things to see. So many things to experience. It’s time to go home. And bring all that I’ve learnt and translate them into being a better kid. To be a real adult. No more wasting of life.

21 and invincible. Here I come.

24 Dec, thurs

Most people would say that it’s crazy to stay home all day long. Especially on Christmas when you are on exchange. I don’t really give a shit. Everyone thinks I’m wasting my time at exchange, locking myself in my little room. But I would have missed out on our Christmas celebration at home (: although I didn’t do much, it was still fun when I was asked about my packing status lol. And being laughed at for gaining weight.

The most memorable part was before ending the call after counting down. When I said “Merry Christmas”, I heard this really huge echo (: Thank you all for that this unique Christmas and setting up the cam, com and mike. Guess 5 Zeizei did that! Thanks! (:

Also thank?you?for the very last movie that we watched apart. No more lags. No more recalls. No more boot up you com. No more call drops. No more upload this, download that. Very soon. All very soon. (:

The irony of his fairytakes is that the life of this man is so not like the stories he tell others. His love was never reciprocated. He died as a bachelor. He might have made a name for himself but with not happily ever after. How sad ):

19 nov sat

Just as a thought my return is 1 week away, I burned myself -.- best. with my own dinner. (Y) scalded my right thumb.

18 dec fri

Watched this episode of “Stars for Cause/明星志工队” featuring Pei Fen. Kenneth wrote something on it previously.?

Over these 4 months, I’m supposed to draw out my 5 year plan. My career goals. But after 4 months, I’m still down with nothing. I think partly, I’m really caught in the choice of profit VS non-profit. Recently, I’ve been brooding over my CV, my internship. What to do to impress my interviewers. How can I gain that professional image. What can I do to make up for the lack of experience in working in offices. However, you dont really see me doing much about it actually. There’s this inertia to get such things done.

I guess after this episode, I realised that i’m most comfortable with dealing with non-profit actually. The rat race is just so hard and tough. Seems like the competition to shine is never ending. At the end of the day, we just need to be heros in our own way. And not heros of your department. Not heros of your company. Maybe just the hero of a friend. of your own family. To experience the simplist things in life. To know you gave your best to your parents, your children. To know you did your part for the society, to share your love and blessings to others like what Pei Fen did.

I was just very right when I said that nearing my retirement I want to work in NPOs. But before that, how should I motivate myself to learn and perform as much as?I can in the profit world and yet not feel sad about it?

Even after being away from home for 4 months, my take on life just seems stronger. and not waning.?I just want to go back to a place where I dont have to worry about my survival. Like in all these coldness. And i’m at peace with myself. And where I know the opportunities are all there for me to do what I enjoy doing.

17 dec

Just yesterday, i thought snow was so beautiful. Made those parks look so much better in winter. Was super intrigued by the structure of snow flakes. I seriously saw the super small snow flake. Kongens Nytorv (the area i live) looked rather pretty with snow covered.

Today, snow just looks awfully disgusting. ZOMG it’s like mud. it’s holy shit max horrible. The road is damn hard to walk on and it was damn slippery. I was wondering what was I doing with my life to go out of my room and battle with -4deg C. wthz. I’m having second thoughts about travelling to Odense and Wadden sea. (Y)

7 dec

When I turned 19, I was DAMN happy cos i could still go around telling people: “I’m still a TEEN! I’m a TEENAGEEEERRRR!” sheetzzz, i’m not one anymore. sad  max ): i wonder when i can get back all my super high crazy energy. i want to be like a teen again

it was like ultra misty today

think i should carry my cam along these days. since i have less than 20 days away from home (: esp after i realised i missed the chance to take picture of our biz strat exam place. it was damn funny. haha in this pok badminton hall. and people lugging their printers to exam to print their exam scripts. SUPER AMUSING.

kop-ed like super lot of exam carbon paper and envelopes ! MUAHAHAHA i’m damn zai. too lazy to take pictures of them. supposed to be studying for HRM ):

and my very nice mum sent me a brand new SIM CARD :D:D it was a very huge family success there. you see my father writing the address. lim chen pin activating the roaming function and my mum posting it at the post office. GOOD JOB MY FRIENDS! but according to kenneth i owe mami 4 bucks /:

6 dec – 20

because i turn 20 in a foreign land. feel really strange now cos its seems like i actually never celebrated my birthday.

super proud of myself for completing so much ytd (: or else i would have died today. wish i didnt lose all my energetic cells. luckily yv shocked them all up (:

How did I lose it all? In just 4 months.

ZOMGGGGGGGGG i’m getting SO EXCITED OVER YV. THIS IS DAMN IRRITATING! I want to know everything that has happened! I want to feel the hype, the rush of emotions, the feeling of high-ness, the great sense of achievement, the super proud feeling of yourself and your friends, your awe at the enormity of this entire camp, the vast number of things you learn about life zomg there is just SO MUCH SO MUCH. i want to feel together with all my awesome friends. but HRM paper is stopping me ): and so is the huge 100 000 miles distance between all of us.

I miss our #1 tfs. our #1 dance. all the learning experiences i went through. all these life long friends that i made and met. at this very special camp. that has a very special place in my heart. I wish I was there. to share all the hardships and joy. All the long tearful nights. Would I be able to relive all these again?

Times like these, i really miss home. with this cruel HRM paper racing towards me. I wish i could put down all these hurdles and fears, to run back into my safe warm home, surrounded with my beloved family and great friends.