Most people would say that it’s crazy to stay home all day long. Especially on Christmas when you are on exchange. I don’t really give a shit. Everyone thinks I’m wasting my time at exchange, locking myself in my little room. But I would have missed out on our Christmas celebration at home (: although I didn’t do much, it was still fun when I was asked about my packing status lol. And being laughed at for gaining weight.

The most memorable part was before ending the call after counting down. When I said “Merry Christmas”, I heard this really huge echo (: Thank you all for that this unique Christmas and setting up the cam, com and mike. Guess 5 Zeizei did that! Thanks! (:

Also thank?you?for the very last movie that we watched apart. No more lags. No more recalls. No more boot up you com. No more call drops. No more upload this, download that. Very soon. All very soon. (:

However, amidst all the tough challenges that come by, there are always people standing strong and resilient. I cannot imagine how Derrick, from the 3rd episode of “P.S. I’m sorry” encouraged himself for 4, 5 years to keep going, pick up skills and do well in work to prove to his father that he has changed and is no longer the old him who doesn’t give know his priorities. And it was so touching to see how Alex Lim, in the 2nd episode, really bucked up when his principal gave him the last chance to prove himself after he was sent to the Boy’s Home.  With only 3 months to prepare for N levels then, he topped the school at the exam. He just received the Stars of Shine award from MCYS and is active in working with teens, sharing his life story.

So many people, struggle so much to survive, to become a better person. They meet with obstacles, lack of opportunities. And when they finally realise the better route to take, they didn’t let anything stop them. They grow to be persons with remarkable spirit. But why, why is it that there is just as many people doing the reverse? Not valuing all that they have. Escape from all their responsibilities. Choosing to do the wrong things. Letting their loved ones down. And not respecting themselves. Why do they end up enjoying sinful indulgence, or doing foolish irrational things? Why can’t they exert more control over their principles, their values? And hold true to what they care and believe in? Do they even know what they really care and hold close to their hearts?

I guess I’m so right. This is a test. Such a real test.

didnt have the time to add that i got a parcel from home ((: cai bor, black pepper sauce, Chinese sausages and sichuan veg. ((: Singpost told mum that it would take 2 weeks to arrive but poof, the parcel sent on monday arrived on friday morning ((:

the hostel at warsaw was really amusing. to get hot water, you have to turn on more taps. meaning like 2 ppl bathing can get hotter water than one person bathing. damn odd. i didnt get to shoot that notice. but we have this:

Jessica was so happy at this (:

Those days, were such simpler.

Was also viewing pictures of the Canadian cousins trip to Asia. Lily’s pictures from her photo shoot were SOOOOOOOOOOOOO PREEETTTTYYY! Miss them man. Though we spent less than 1 week together, we still try to keep in contact. The relationship is rather magical in the sense that we are not blood related, we are distant relatives; we didn’t grow up together. Yet, we look forward to hosting each other. We totally enjoyed their company when they came over to Singapore. It was phenomenal, more than 40 people dressed in our very own LimSimiTeh blue trademark shirt. In return, they kept inviting us over to Canada, cos they want to host us, bring us around too. It is just so intriguing.

I realised, my roots are still at home. It just doesn’t feel the same, no matter how good life can be elsewhere.

This should be all exciting! Daniel Yeo and myself are partner buddies again. I’m working in a committee again, after sometime. It is gonna be a brand new programme to build our talent pool. My role is something I haven’t tried. We also have a couple of young potentials whom I’m glad to be able to share my experience with. Maybe I will get to feel like how I did at YV08, to feel the pure innocent burning passion from these younger ones again.

Talking to Gary Seet these days has been inspiring. Just like how Vick encouraged me in the past. (: Assuring that I really have something to share, to contribute. This is how YV keeps me going.

Before all that, I should be doing my assignments and projects ): plus INSTEP. man, I’m starting to dread school. I want to extend my break. Hokae, should take it that I’m lumping my breaks up to a whole three month pwnage HOLIDAEE.

When can I ever learn to balance it? It’s either I care much for home or am irresponsible. /:

I THINK IT WAS A BRILLANT WEEKEND!

saturday was niceeeeeee. cos yv08 endedddddddd it was awesome to meet all the awesome people again. my group was so sweet. thanks for allllll the notes. (: super appreciated. thanks to lyon’s group for the speaker-cushion! HA. a thought came to me upon reading all the letters: what exactly have i done over this december that made people feel inspired about volunteering and that they had made a pleasant friend whom they would want to keep for life. (i found the answer, credits to nina:”you may not know but it is there” – YV song II) I was so FREAKING TOUCHED that i teared a little when reading the loooong letters from them and listening to the phone call. seriously, WHAT THE HELL HAVE I DONE? It is totally scary that friends tell me that they have made an impact on their lives after our friendships started out for only a month. Totally, unbelievable.

our group!

Having a party with little time to plan was a bad idea. Having no budget for a party, catering to 50 people wasn’t pretty too. Marina Barrage is amazing, you can make all the noise at night. Ha. All was fun still (: Watching people play stupid games. HAHA. boxers on tracy, g-string on fahan, disgusting milkshake + saliva, sucking – from the milk bottle… HA, I hope the Vday dinner can realise man. Parties are so fun!

Guess the ingredients

John, happily sucking for a milk bottle

71 was great company! (: I miss allllll the niaoing I got from the boys. And I got it from the first moment I meet them at adams road fc. They just meng niao-ed me. Although I was losing my voice and getting ill, I was really happy to see them and be with them that night. I miss cai cai’s sexy voice, I miss maria’s wiki explanations, I miss calling “da bing ge”, I miss yumings angst, I miss paulines “xiang wo ma?”, I miss cheryls “darling”, I miss watching da sao eat xiao mi mi, I miss being enthu about being on time for lessons with elaine and mannying, I miss mitch’s gruchiness, I miss yows shyness, I miss ma’s sexy legs, I miss joannes smile, I miss hannahs: “huh?”, I miss watching foongs stone, I miss being niaoed about gary, I miss eeloongs playfulness, I miss chunruis crazy talks, I miss rebeccas blurness, I miss xiangsu’s quietness, I miss alicias long hair, I miss weixins answers, I miss yangs imba brains, I miss dennys cuteness, i miss watching ksiong sleep with his eyes open. i miss, i miss. didnt expect myself to miss hwachong, miss 71 sooooo much. life is no longer like before. ): i cant even speak to my uni friends the way i speak to 71 ): NIWAYS, I almost got dunked by yuming, mitch and bingge. lol, i forgot why i didnt get dunk, but it was damn tiring can. ha. yang’s place is a good one to dunk ppl, cos he has a washing machine AND drier at home. LOL. seriously.

And we did it, Bee, edmund goh and myself. After 5 hours of sitting at central, we got that piece of paper – the ticket to mayday’s OPEN AIR CONCERT at stadium green this coming sunday. Every year, it becomes crazier and crazier. It started off with albums, 100buck ticket, t-shirts, more albums, super ex t-shirt, album, 151buck ticket, shirt, album. And now, QUEUEING for a ticket for hours. luckily edmund went early at  6 plus. about 80 ppl were before him in the queue. those who came later were under the hot sun ): luckily they managed to get tickets too. We should had gone at 2pm. Didnt have to queue. LOL oh well, we were plain kiasu and paranoid. It was still cool being the first block to receive the tickets!

Got home and was super tired. Was so happy to be home once again cos I didnt sleep at home for 2 nights. Though, it always seemed to papa and mami that I had fun outside and I enjoy being outside, I am always truly glad to be home, safe and sound, to share with them and my brothers what happened outside, while watching the tv, dramas, eating meals, snacks. Man, school is starting and I’ve to return to where ugliness is rampant ): I need more strength to face this.

Thank goodness that results were fine. but it is no slacking time next sem. (:

I want some time alone. to think, of resolutions. of directions. to make decisions. time time time.