biabia (: » fear

YAY!

biabia — Thu, 09 Apr 2009 11:21:02 +0000

yes! thank you kenneth, for reviving my blog for me. ha the previous theme KILLED it completely. shruks. i shall change my theme after exams maybe.

exams are horribly scary once again ): sian, i’ve been a really horrigible student this sem. have gotta do some serious review on my performance and how i can go ahead from here.

FIVE DAYS. ): scarey scarey.

screw tts

biabia — Tue, 18 Mar 2008 15:44:48 +0000

it was totally disgusting. the wait. the confusion. the inefficiency. it’s so – wtf. grr!

complains aside. the fact that it happened hasn’t seem to sink into my head yet.? it was hard to imagine that he was close to leaving. i was in a blank state. i couldn’t ask questions; i didn’t think of what if this happened, what if that happened; nothing came to me. no wonder i was quite lost at work today.

waking up

biabia — Mon, 03 Mar 2008 17:04:22 +0000

sylvia has been stuck in the confused state for too long. thank you, vick, for reminding me that i have no time to waste. i should so stop wasting my time and my friends’ time in whining over silly things. stop being weak, sylvia. just do what you need to do. your concept was always to be the one giving and not the one throwing tantrums. and thank you, friends, for at least i know now that there are friends who still love me for who i am and will help me in fighting my weaknesses and building my strengths. and thank you, for accompanying me the whole day too. it helped a lot, seriously. and now, i know that i can do more than just crying alone when i face such problems again. sylvia won’t continue to be a hermit crab. i don’t need to care if a particular person values me cos more importantly is how i value that person. i miss myself being noisy and easy going, just like how i always behave with 71, with huangcheng, with rvians, with my family. all these nonsense has to stop. cut the crap and move on. stop pretending to be confused and psyching yourself into that state cos things will never turn better that way.

and about the can of worms, sigh. i should never doubt my mother about such advices. they really turn out to be the best way to handle things in the world outside of home and school. i only hope that people can stop freaking me out with all those rubbish tactics. i want peace.

results will be out on friday. honestly, i claim to be nervous and worried but feelings aren’t that intense yet. hope i don’t cry on friday. whether they turn out good or bad. i cried real badly despite doing well for Os.

oh my god! i am meeting mayday tmr <3 i can’t wait.

I ROCK.

biabia — Mon, 25 Feb 2008 16:37:02 +0000

i’ve finally got that essay done. (: sylvia, essays aren’t that scary, you can smack them down very easily. (: go on and whack the rest. (:

omgs, i need a life. i am so unoccupied that my mind gets distracted and loses focus. will results come soon so that i will get over the moon or cry my eyeballs out. this stage is so painful.

mayday, close up. here i come <3

i am opening a can of worms. will someone gobble them up to save me from the fright?

stop making me dream of odd stuff, please.