Koda Koda Koda Koda Oom Baba, Aye aye aye aye yaya~

All was fun. (: Credits to the committee for all the work. Great appreciation to the Heart2Heart seniors, we were really treated like their babies. Am glad to be in the H2H family ‘cos it reminds me of the homey feeling I want with my friends. Thanks to Koda for being such a lovely OG, sorry for the panic attack still! ): We were supposed to be second, then thanks to my body, I had to stop, cry and regain my breath; we turned out first from the bottom and wayang-ed our way back. So, paiseh about that /:

I hate it when I lose control of my body. It’s not like I love the sensation of fainting or the cathartic effect of a panic attack. Faints make me feel like I’m gonna die. Vertigo makes me feel suicidal. Panic attacks make me feel like I’ve just lost someone. I don’t know what the hell is wrong, is it really a physical issue or psychological problem. Okay, at least I know that panic attacks are caused by stress on my side. Thank goodness I haven’t got them for two years, which means I have been managing my break downs in college rather well. As for the faints and vertigo, hell, they plain suck. Could you guys please leave me?

Ten hours of sleep in five days was insane. I had nightmares almost every night. And my throat is full of phlegm, making me cough every now and then. Am worried for hall camp, hope I won’t fall ill, driving test is nearing /:

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One week away from my com and I missed two entries on 阿信’s blog ): sadded. Guess I need some Mayday intoxication for the next few days to remedy my gloom. Randomz-

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Trilympics was well done. (: The manpower from SMU was really helpful, sped things up. Overnight was fun with YV friends. A pity that I was too shagged out and lost my voice due to FOC, didn’t get to talk much. But it was still great to attend it with #1s, woohoo! Honestly, after FOC, I totally forgot about the significance of pointing into the sky to #1s, cos of the “Mingle” cheer. Until everyone started to 自high for no reason when I raised my hands up, lol, amusing. Actually I’m still clueless to what role I wanna play in SVC /: After almost a year, yea, I don’t know what exactly is it that I wanna do. Maybe I should just sit back, relax and just, I don’t know, tie loose ends. Urgh, /: