biabia (:

speechless.

where is the picture?

innocence in rv. passion in rvco. growth in yv. excellence in hwachong. fun in 黄城. love at home.

everything else that i learn after that goes downhill, ugly.

even Mayday can’t move me now. if only i could listen to the gold 爱诗曲 again, live.

breathe. “one oil barrel at a time” -Brian Tracy

On 31st Dec 2007, Sylvia wrote: “i want my optimism back. i swear that i will fuse that in me and never let it go ever again. with that, my heart and passion will stay with me for good. i want to love 2008 just like how ashin loved his 2007, our 2007.
grow up, sylvia. rape 2008.”

Six months later, Sylvia is behaving more like how she should be and how she wants to be. Well done, girl. (Y) The percentage of positive days are increasing and it is so gonna dominate the rest of my life, woohoo! I was feeling as though I was wasting my life away too, haha. Now with courses and goal setting going along, my brain is more productive, heh.

With the general mentality in place, it’s time to focus more on that change in approach. I swear I will whack this down! By December, Sylvia’s gonna be freaking zai at this new style. Feelings, feelings.

The next half of the year is gonna be freaking exciting. Uni is coming up, YV is coming up. And Sao as my roomie, woohoo! We’re holding a room-warming cum birthday celebration. Can’t imagine what other crazy things we’ll do together. (x

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We played a prank on Yunnie Jiejie, (Y) damn imba. 陈建彬 senior is like freaking witty. “Ice cream&蛋糕” what a twist man! haha. Would like to thank the DJs for helping us with this special 21st bday present once again (: And I miss Limsimiteh. Cousin power <333 Heh, it's time to gather before Christmas arrives!

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I’m so addicted to McFly. Gosh- Their music is really great. I was like looping “Star Girl” for days. And now it’s “All about you”. Tom Fletcher is like soooo sweet, he composed “All about you” as a Vday present for a girl long before the album. And “She falls asleep” is soooooo touching man. McFly Mcfryyyyyyyy!

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Am too lazy to transfer the photos I took at Rafael’s celebration, heh. Upload them next time (: #1s are great company Great to foster more ties in SVC (: I love the quote from Tracy “In YV, there are no strangers. We are just friends who haven’t met.” Weeeee- next up is trilmpics!

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Last one, Happy Birthday to Cedric and Meldric, the supposed twins born in different years. (: and also to SONG HUAAAAAAAAA! WHEN CAN WE EVER MEET ): gah! I miss the army boys!

sylvia has been stuck in the confused state for too long. thank you, vick, for reminding me that i have no time to waste. i should so stop wasting my time and my friends’ time in whining over silly things. stop being weak, sylvia. just do what you need to do. your concept was always to be the one giving and not the one throwing tantrums. and thank you, friends, for at least i know now that there are friends who still love me for who i am and will help me in fighting my weaknesses and building my strengths. and thank you, for accompanying me the whole day too. it helped a lot, seriously. and now, i know that i can do more than just crying alone when i face such problems again. sylvia won’t continue to be a hermit crab. i don’t need to care if a particular person values me cos more importantly is how i value that person. i miss myself being noisy and easy going, just like how i always behave with 71, with huangcheng, with rvians, with my family. all these nonsense has to stop. cut the crap and move on. stop pretending to be confused and psyching yourself into that state cos things will never turn better that way.

and about the can of worms, sigh. i should never doubt my mother about such advices. they really turn out to be the best way to handle things in the world outside of home and school. i only hope that people can stop freaking me out with all those rubbish tactics. i want peace.

results will be out on friday. honestly, i claim to be nervous and worried but feelings aren’t that intense yet. hope i don’t cry on friday. whether they turn out good or bad. i cried real badly despite doing well for Os.

oh my god! i am meeting mayday tmr <3 i can’t wait.

goodness gracious! the last time i blogged was 23 January, a good one month ago. i feel like i’m wasting my life away man. these days, i wake up just to go to work, giving moments with The Straits Times a miss, being myopic towards my messy room, being completely ignorant to what’s happening to my family members… in short, life has been quite screwed. i simply lost control of time, habits and system. it is not that i do not have things to do. in fact, i have many essays to complete but i am not working on them at all! i already have my PSC essay planned but am procrastinating due to the dread of writing. all these suck, seriously. to be unmotivated, lazy, apprehensive; all part of losing self-esteem. it was great to visit huangcheng, cos it reminded me that i was after once capable of taking up responsibilities and enthusiastic of being a high flyer. now i understand the importance of schooling, it forces you to work your body and brain and keep them from rusting.

my next schedule for work is quite pathetic. think it’s time to write in for internships and to chiong tuitions. else i will have to eat into my eighteen-year-savings, which is rather bad, lol.

i dreamt of getting my results last night and guess what? “MATHEMATICS – B”. WTH?! #$)%$#!@#! i think i will cry if i get B for maths, which is the only subject that i’m confident of. anyway, the printing quality of the results slip was poor, so i cannot remember my “grades” clearly, they should be like ABCC, ZZZ, don’t think i can go anywhere with that. this is so freaking me out, lol.

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