biabia (:

在这个世界 有一点希望 有一点失望…

blasted mayday the whole day. i miss ashin’s voice. all the highness, reminds me of all the happiness on earth and in music…

I THINK IT WAS A BRILLANT WEEKEND!

saturday was niceeeeeee. cos yv08 endedddddddd it was awesome to meet all the awesome people again. my group was so sweet. thanks for allllll the notes. (: super appreciated. thanks to lyon’s group for the speaker-cushion! HA. a thought came to me upon reading all the letters: what exactly have i done over this december that made people feel inspired about volunteering and that they had made a pleasant friend whom they would want to keep for life. (i found the answer, credits to nina:”you may not know but it is there” – YV song II) I was so FREAKING TOUCHED that i teared a little when reading the loooong letters from them and listening to the phone call. seriously, WHAT THE HELL HAVE I DONE? It is totally scary that friends tell me that they have made an impact on their lives after our friendships started out for only a month. Totally, unbelievable.

our group!

Having a party with little time to plan was a bad idea. Having no budget for a party, catering to 50 people wasn’t pretty too. Marina Barrage is amazing, you can make all the noise at night. Ha. All was fun still (: Watching people play stupid games. HAHA. boxers on tracy, g-string on fahan, disgusting milkshake + saliva, sucking – from the milk bottle… HA, I hope the Vday dinner can realise man. Parties are so fun!

Guess the ingredients

John, happily sucking for a milk bottle

71 was great company! (: I miss allllll the niaoing I got from the boys. And I got it from the first moment I meet them at adams road fc. They just meng niao-ed me. Although I was losing my voice and getting ill, I was really happy to see them and be with them that night. I miss cai cai’s sexy voice, I miss maria’s wiki explanations, I miss calling “da bing ge”, I miss yumings angst, I miss paulines “xiang wo ma?”, I miss cheryls “darling”, I miss watching da sao eat xiao mi mi, I miss being enthu about being on time for lessons with elaine and mannying, I miss mitch’s gruchiness, I miss yows shyness, I miss ma’s sexy legs, I miss joannes smile, I miss hannahs: “huh?”, I miss watching foongs stone, I miss being niaoed about gary, I miss eeloongs playfulness, I miss chunruis crazy talks, I miss rebeccas blurness, I miss xiangsu’s quietness, I miss alicias long hair, I miss weixins answers, I miss yangs imba brains, I miss dennys cuteness, i miss watching ksiong sleep with his eyes open. i miss, i miss. didnt expect myself to miss hwachong, miss 71 sooooo much. life is no longer like before. ): i cant even speak to my uni friends the way i speak to 71 ): NIWAYS, I almost got dunked by yuming, mitch and bingge. lol, i forgot why i didnt get dunk, but it was damn tiring can. ha. yang’s place is a good one to dunk ppl, cos he has a washing machine AND drier at home. LOL. seriously.

And we did it, Bee, edmund goh and myself. After 5 hours of sitting at central, we got that piece of paper – the ticket to mayday’s OPEN AIR CONCERT at stadium green this coming sunday. Every year, it becomes crazier and crazier. It started off with albums, 100buck ticket, t-shirts, more albums, super ex t-shirt, album, 151buck ticket, shirt, album. And now, QUEUEING for a ticket for hours. luckily edmund went early at  6 plus. about 80 ppl were before him in the queue. those who came later were under the hot sun ): luckily they managed to get tickets too. We should had gone at 2pm. Didnt have to queue. LOL oh well, we were plain kiasu and paranoid. It was still cool being the first block to receive the tickets!

Got home and was super tired. Was so happy to be home once again cos I didnt sleep at home for 2 nights. Though, it always seemed to papa and mami that I had fun outside and I enjoy being outside, I am always truly glad to be home, safe and sound, to share with them and my brothers what happened outside, while watching the tv, dramas, eating meals, snacks. Man, school is starting and I’ve to return to where ugliness is rampant ): I need more strength to face this.

Thank goodness that results were fine. but it is no slacking time next sem. (:

I want some time alone. to think, of resolutions. of directions. to make decisions. time time time.

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[開天窗]

一隻鯨魚 要怎麼放進冰箱 打開門 然後用力關冰箱
然後呢 如果你還想要 放一隻大象

一份希望 要怎麼放進心臟 如果你 活的有一點悲傷
答案是 用力丟掉鯨魚 用力甩悲傷

是誰說半夜不能吃便當 是誰說彩虹不能長頭上
是誰說藍色就等於憂傷 你看看天空和海洋

順風時就展開雙翅飛翔 逆風時就當成在衝浪
沒有風的時候那就讓我 開開天窗

一句歌詞 怎麼讓你很難忘 方文山 林夕和我都在想
想破頭 也鑽不進一個 緊閉的心房

一個難題 要用多少的智商 多少淚 還有多少的盼望
多少人 變成緊閉門窗 孤獨的國王

fantasic. (Y) I was waiting for something like this to come to push me. Previously, I was just too lag, there was neither push nor pull factor for me to utilise myself fully. It was a great opportunity for me to use my brains and heart and trigger all the systems in me. I’m proud to say that I’ve started the engine of my drive and am ready to fight all monsters laying in my way! LOL. The greatest achievement would be getting out of the negative cycle that sylvia is freaking famous for. (: I thought that at that moment, perhaps I can never jump out of that negative train of thought without Teo Chun Rui. But, bravo, sylvia did it on her own (: in less than 15 minutes! I so rock! sylvia will replicate this success infinite number of times. (Y)(Y)

Anyways, the #1s were a great company at the camp (: we are rocking it down this december.

Today, I discovered how my stereotyping and dislike for Chinese is so mean. Oops man, it really made me feel guilty. /:

Mayday is just so irresistable. <123456789
如果有一天 你对我说
你要离开我
我想 我不会强求
也不会挽留
只因为 我所能给你
最好 最美 也是最后的温柔
你会听到我对你说
我给你自由…

hee, happy 31st Masa.

ONE MORE DAY. and WE will be DOWN TO EARTH.

looking forward to the FIRST 小太阳, right in SINGAPORE, no where else;

the FIRST 回到地球表面

the FIRST SKYBRIDGE in INDOOR

the FIRST MAYDAY in INDOOR.

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(: oh my godz! i got their signatures and shook their hands! but shi tou/stone wasnt ard, sad. haha. but ashin <33 oh my godz. think he kinda dyed his eyebrows and grew fat. haha. i reached bugis at round 1640h, when the event was supposed to start at 1900h. goodness me, there was already a queue. thank god i met this friendly fan, huiling, in front of me in the queue. (: heh, chatting helped to kill time. then beeying came. ahh~ everyone went snapping, snapping. oh my goodness, it was so insane of me to be one of them, haha. peifen was rather kelian, stood there for a whole event. she is one cute lady, heh my senior (: mayday was kelian too, they signed for almost 2 hours. beeying and i finished our dinner at macs after getting their signatures and posters, they were still signing! even after we left! haha. sigh sigh!

i went home for a nap after passing my basic theory evaluation in the morning and guess what? i overslept to 1! haha, and met sao and gang at 1430 instead. lol. sneaked in to kbox with them for a while before leaving for the qian chang hui. haha, i miss fooling around in school, double sigh. all the best dinny winny/winkwink (:

sao, unglam (:

pauline seah, singing (:

hug wink (:

wink wink and myself (:

got a scare on my way home, ):

received a letter from cornell today. it got me all nervous, cos i thought it was results on application. but it was so not. it was just a reminder that my application is not complete and requests me to send the missing material. the letter was dated on 19 Feb and it’s 4th March today, wee. haha. (forgot to mention that the letter had the cornell watermark, oh my god)