biabia (:

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Ha, I did not realise that deadlines for assignment, projects, presentations were all coming on the second week after recess. Seriously, had no idea the amount of shit I was piling up, LOL. I am gonna have another imba Wednesday. I escaped the last one with flu and headaches. Ha, this time round, I can’t skip a thing. Business law assignment is another confusing shit. It is like twice of OB assignment.

Time to stop sleeping my days away. I did up my schedule and this is gonna be pwnage. I don’t want to feel unprepared for exams this time round. I’m the corouring queen. I’m the mugging queen.

This should be all exciting! Daniel Yeo and myself are partner buddies again. I’m working in a committee again, after sometime. It is gonna be a brand new programme to build our talent pool. My role is something I haven’t tried. We also have a couple of young potentials whom I’m glad to be able to share my experience with. Maybe I will get to feel like how I did at YV08, to feel the pure innocent burning passion from these younger ones again.

Talking to Gary Seet these days has been inspiring. Just like how Vick encouraged me in the past. (: Assuring that I really have something to share, to contribute. This is how YV keeps me going.

Before all that, I should be doing my assignments and projects ): plus INSTEP. man, I’m starting to dread school. I want to extend my break. Hokae, should take it that I’m lumping my breaks up to a whole three month pwnage HOLIDAEE.

When can I ever learn to balance it? It’s either I care much for home or am irresponsible. /:

I THINK IT WAS A BRILLANT WEEKEND!

saturday was niceeeeeee. cos yv08 endedddddddd it was awesome to meet all the awesome people again. my group was so sweet. thanks for allllll the notes. (: super appreciated. thanks to lyon’s group for the speaker-cushion! HA. a thought came to me upon reading all the letters: what exactly have i done over this december that made people feel inspired about volunteering and that they had made a pleasant friend whom they would want to keep for life. (i found the answer, credits to nina:”you may not know but it is there” – YV song II) I was so FREAKING TOUCHED that i teared a little when reading the loooong letters from them and listening to the phone call. seriously, WHAT THE HELL HAVE I DONE? It is totally scary that friends tell me that they have made an impact on their lives after our friendships started out for only a month. Totally, unbelievable.

our group!

Having a party with little time to plan was a bad idea. Having no budget for a party, catering to 50 people wasn’t pretty too. Marina Barrage is amazing, you can make all the noise at night. Ha. All was fun still (: Watching people play stupid games. HAHA. boxers on tracy, g-string on fahan, disgusting milkshake + saliva, sucking – from the milk bottle… HA, I hope the Vday dinner can realise man. Parties are so fun!

Guess the ingredients

John, happily sucking for a milk bottle

71 was great company! (: I miss allllll the niaoing I got from the boys. And I got it from the first moment I meet them at adams road fc. They just meng niao-ed me. Although I was losing my voice and getting ill, I was really happy to see them and be with them that night. I miss cai cai’s sexy voice, I miss maria’s wiki explanations, I miss calling “da bing ge”, I miss yumings angst, I miss paulines “xiang wo ma?”, I miss cheryls “darling”, I miss watching da sao eat xiao mi mi, I miss being enthu about being on time for lessons with elaine and mannying, I miss mitch’s gruchiness, I miss yows shyness, I miss ma’s sexy legs, I miss joannes smile, I miss hannahs: “huh?”, I miss watching foongs stone, I miss being niaoed about gary, I miss eeloongs playfulness, I miss chunruis crazy talks, I miss rebeccas blurness, I miss xiangsu’s quietness, I miss alicias long hair, I miss weixins answers, I miss yangs imba brains, I miss dennys cuteness, i miss watching ksiong sleep with his eyes open. i miss, i miss. didnt expect myself to miss hwachong, miss 71 sooooo much. life is no longer like before. ): i cant even speak to my uni friends the way i speak to 71 ): NIWAYS, I almost got dunked by yuming, mitch and bingge. lol, i forgot why i didnt get dunk, but it was damn tiring can. ha. yang’s place is a good one to dunk ppl, cos he has a washing machine AND drier at home. LOL. seriously.

And we did it, Bee, edmund goh and myself. After 5 hours of sitting at central, we got that piece of paper – the ticket to mayday’s OPEN AIR CONCERT at stadium green this coming sunday. Every year, it becomes crazier and crazier. It started off with albums, 100buck ticket, t-shirts, more albums, super ex t-shirt, album, 151buck ticket, shirt, album. And now, QUEUEING for a ticket for hours. luckily edmund went early at  6 plus. about 80 ppl were before him in the queue. those who came later were under the hot sun ): luckily they managed to get tickets too. We should had gone at 2pm. Didnt have to queue. LOL oh well, we were plain kiasu and paranoid. It was still cool being the first block to receive the tickets!

Got home and was super tired. Was so happy to be home once again cos I didnt sleep at home for 2 nights. Though, it always seemed to papa and mami that I had fun outside and I enjoy being outside, I am always truly glad to be home, safe and sound, to share with them and my brothers what happened outside, while watching the tv, dramas, eating meals, snacks. Man, school is starting and I’ve to return to where ugliness is rampant ): I need more strength to face this.

Thank goodness that results were fine. but it is no slacking time next sem. (:

I want some time alone. to think, of resolutions. of directions. to make decisions. time time time.

i’m giving PSC a miss. hell, that i actually spent a week on that. it made sense, i mean i was just applying for the sake of applying. not that like i’m dying to be a civil servant. they wont want me for being so unenthusiastic about public service. i should just go focus on what i need and plan ahead ahead, hmm. thanks to miss lim, i am thinking better and more clearly. i mean my mind was in a whirl. i dunno what exactly to do and what kind of short cuts to look out for. at least now i am giving quality thought, rather than feeling everything in darkness.

it was great going back to hwachong, stoning at my place on the class bench, eating the one-dollar-hotdog-bread, visiting miss lim… it reminds me of how much i actually loved a school, my comfort zone, my aspirations… ahh, in short, i miss school. life without obligation sucks. i never thought i would desire for an unquestionable responsibility. urgh

just completed an essay for jingfeng, goodness, he is so gonna owe me a treat. i never dreamt of writing an essay for my friend. am rather surprised that i agreed to help. i would like gone like “huh, but it is your essay, how could i do it for you? blah blah..” but he is a poor chap. think those cj kids all are. with common test next week, spa this week, and a nonsense essay to complete for an external organisation. oh wellllll.

0133h looks rather late. goodness, i’ve got work at 12 tmr, ahh.